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August 16th, 2004

09:53 pm - did you ever know before Well i juss talked to ray.. it wasnt long tho.. hes phone kept breaking up hes somewhere in south florida :( i miss him so much... he dosent know when he will be home.. and jeff is in porta something...work is doing great... school is doing great... all im missing is my ramon... Me and lauren went to eat sushi last nite.. then went to wall mart then went and rented FEAR AND LOATHING IN LAS VEGAS.. i need to finish watching that tonight... other than that.. nothing has been going on... and the less i feel like writting on here the more im tempted to delete it... nite Current Mood: i miss ray ray Current Music: Coheed and Cambria- The Crowing

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August 14th, 2004

12:35 am - no show bitch Well fuck the hurricane.. i was seriously waiting for that bitch all day.. its like a bad holiday seriously!~ Ray gets to go and clean up debree from the hurricane i dont know where tho... im hopeing that its juss around PC then theres probably not much and he wont be away for 7 days. We didnt get much here that i could see.. juss some wind.. I cant beleive that people acutally boarded up their houses and shit.. but i guess its unpredictable so w/e its gone tho.. Now we can all continue with our lives.. I got my car back today... but only the window was fixxed not the dint or the part of my dash.. i seriously need to clean it though thats for sure.. I start at WOODYS again hopefully either tomorrow or sunday.. thank god my parents are giving my life back... lifes been happy now that i have my baby back..its time to decide you know things for the future.. whats all going on and stuff... Im looking online for my class ring now.. since im going to a new school i dont know how they do their stuff.. Im putting PLant city's stuff on my ring.. even though ill be graduating at wesley chapel high.. its not my school... so maybe ill put that stupid tiger paw somewhere on my ring.. but proabably not!~ you know.. well there was something important i was going to say.. but i forgot.. so ill just go to sleep now.. goodnite.. Current Mood: amused Current Music: the tv

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August 12th, 2004

11:54 pm - hurricane!~ yay no school tomorrow... i really dont think the hurricanes going to be as bad as ppl think it is... i guess rays got hurricane duty... for the army.. and he wont find out untill the morning when where and what hes doing.. all we know is that its for 7 days... omg it sux... i had some friends over to play monopoly lol... best hurricane game ever!~ lol... we didnt finish though... we started getting side tracked lol... well im off to bed.. nite everyone.. and BE SAFE!~ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: my tv and my birds getting ready to sleep

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August 10th, 2004

06:43 pm - ughm Well I know i shouldnt have went to school today.. but i thought hell why not.. lauren had a nightmere about my accident..she said she woke up screaming.. poor thing.. i had a really really hard time sleeping last nite... ray ended up calling me at like 230 i was starting to get worried... and i barly remember the convo.. now im all drugged up on some pain shit.. yay for me.. the doctor was right though.. she said that i would wake up in a lotta pain... ya i did.. omg.. fuck my dad juss brought in my atm card he said it was in the dryer now the numbers arent all poking out.. there like melted on there :( damn it!~ The new rental car my dad got today is soooo fun to drive!~ its a little red nissan sentra.. weeeeeeee... my dad went and saw the truck today bcuz he was making sure he didnt leave anything else in there important.. and i guess the passanger side is all totaled... and whats weird is .... MY WINDOW was the only one that BROKE?!~?!~ I was like WHAT!!!!!!!!!??? I seriously thought i was drownding i was ready to find some water escape route i thought we landed in a lake or something hell if i know... no wonder i was the only one who got glass all over their clothes... my mom seems to think that somehow her door was open and thats how more water came in.. but i juss think it was really really deep and it rushed into the truck from my window when it broke.. it was really scary... i cried myself to sleep bcuz of the pain and it was just like the most horrible feeling.. for you to be outta the truck and looking at it.. and hearing your dad scream... OMG MY WIFE IS BLEEDING...**it was juss her nose but he juss saw blood**.. was really horrifying.. ughm.. okay im done talking about that.. schools going well. yesterday it was good.. it went by really fast.. OJT... awesome.. i get out sooo early.. its so wonderful being a senior too!~it juss seems like only yesterday i was a little girl in 9th grade.. hahaha.. well imma go watch some tv.. and wait for ray to calm his ass down.. hmmmmmz lol.. byez Current Mood: I HURT Current Music: coheed and cambria- devil in jersey city

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August 9th, 2004

09:52 pm - 10-23-02 ME AND RAY ARE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN.. lovers.. but i was gonna tell you about the good part of my day.. maybe tomorrow.... i juss got outta the hospitol... my dad flipped his sports trac on our way home from target when it was raining.. we did a complete 360 and flipped the truck....im fine.. i had to go and get some xrays done.. my back left shoulder is in drastic pain.. but i think ill be okay... glass was everywhere... i was able to get ahold of ray at work.. and he rushed over to the hospital to see me.. baby i thought you were gonna cry... im in so much pain.. my moms gonna kill me if she sees me on here... and yes my parents are okay.. my dads a fucking idiot and my mom i think busted her nose open pretty good... well ill type when i feel better... THANK YOU GOD... bcuz i wasnt wearing my seat belt... Current Mood: sore Current Music: brand new- quiet things that no one ever knows

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August 8th, 2004

09:44 pm - SENIOR YEAR YAY school start tommorrow.. im really excited.. and nervous.. i havnt been the new girl since i met lindsay 7th grade... omg.. how do i adjust? ha.. me and my friend lauren are going to starbucks to get a coffee to start of the wonderful day before school.. I get out whenever my lunch is or b4 that if id prefer.. so around noon time or so!~ yay for me. I think imma start making ballon animals with lauren with benny the ballon guy.. they make alotta fucking money!~ more than i made at woodys. I need that. Now im sitting here listening to ray say DONT HATE DONT HATE and doing dishes. OMG. I think i need to go take a shower.. nothing else to do. Today i didnt do much, it rained all day so i woke up at like 1 in the afternoon thinking it was early cuz it was dark as fuck. made some pancakes for myself.. watched some lifetime with my gma.... went to the store, my parents got home from orlando. my mommy got me this big ass beach towel that says orlando on it. hehe. then i had dinner, and made my same o mixture since like 9th grade mannoyse**spelled wrong** and ketchup... omg rays freestyling on the phone OMG i cant concentrate. it wont stop. i think we are back together now.. cuz he keeps saying my girfriend blah blah blah.. freestyling bs.. talking about omg forget it.. well ill post tomorrow after SCHOOL.. senior year bitches... BOW DOWN UNDERCLASS MEN Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: ray trying to freestyle

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August 6th, 2004

09:00 pm - not even god takes this long to get back wow what a nice past 24 fucking hours.. yesterday morning ray came over while my parents were away for a couple of hours till he had to go to the school at 2 then last nite in the middle of the nite... i hear this noise... im wayyy too sleepy to understand the noise. when morning comes my dad wakes me up... and come to find out MY FUCKING CAR WAS BROKEN INTO.. wtf.. how you gonna pay 200,000 dollars and up for a fucking house and have fuck heads like that who break into shit? my glass on the drivers side was shatterd a dint on the driver side back door and half of my dash is busted bcuz long behold my CD player.. ya... fuck people seriously.. .omg... NOw im stick here with my grandma at my house while my parents have fun in Orlando. hmmm... its gay i know...Plans for getting outta this house are looking good.. ray wants to move out in December.. i have not problem with that... sounds like a good investment for that money i get in november!~ OMG MY CAR :( alright well i guess me and my grandma are gonna watch barbarshop 2... so pce out~!~ Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Poe- Hello

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August 5th, 2004

05:55 pm - sleep!~ Anyways I cant wait for school to start, last fucking year of hell.. Im juss soooo ready to move on with my life. My parents are going outta town this whole fucking weekend whoo. BUT, im "grounded" so they said i can stay with my grandma!~ whatta bitch... uh HELLO, i dont think so. tried sneeking SOMEONE in my window last nite and i thought i had my alarm rigged up pretty good but when i went to go get SOMEONE at the park and walk back in my room.. i must have moved the window to fast and like the alarm went off at like 1230 at nite.. IM LIKE SHIT... go go go go... and i tried to play it off... when my rents woke up and BRINKS called... but you know what... they are stupid.. and never found out that i was trying to sneek outta my house.. even though my fucking window was cracked open and my screen was popped out!~ wtf.. i was able to remove the tape on the bars of the alarm cuz my dad was scopping out the window pain... wow what an adrinialin rush!~ HOLLY SHIT!~ lets do it again mommy.. lol... god im so sick blah.. god im itchin to tell you my whole day.. but fuck it... i really am sad that i cant be at PC this year.. but i guess its cool i really wanna be at WCHS this year though... everything is meant to be at this point in my life... thats the way imma see it... well my mom wants me to go great some cheese for her for home made pizza!~ yay... well byez now.. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Coheed and Cambria- Delirium Trigger

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August 4th, 2004

12:08 am - crazy today was good.. I juss got home from rays.. my moms pissed at me tho.. she said i took advantage of her bcuz she grounded me a week ago and shit.. well i didnt tell her to say yes you know? she could have said no... and she said i was late getting home.. so that makes things worse.. i had a nice nite tho Ray came and picked me up from my house cuz im grounded from my car and we went to blockbuster in PC and rented MONSTER... interesting movie thats for sure.. and we juss cuddled on the couch... he made me dinner lol well sortta a bunch of pastas lol... and he started falling alseep.. hes got lack-o-sleep syndrome crazyness... Theres talk of me and him moving to the beach.. thats where he wants to move.. ANYWHERE i dont care!~ lol it was really romantic.. i asked him if it felt good to be holding eachother and in love... and he said yes.. made my insides all warm lol..and now im here but i got to drive the truck here i love driving his truck... Im begining to think that im getting sick.. ive been sneezing and sniffling all fucking day... OMG... well I g2g... nite none lovers Current Mood: loved Current Music: slipknot-dualty

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August 2nd, 2004

04:37 pm - Love is amazing Nothing much today.. snuck out again last nite.. it was really really fun.. juss hanging out with the crowd.. I think sometime we are gonna cruise to the beach and chill on the beach..that will be so nice.. Ray told me i need to stop doing stupid shit in order to get him back.. hmmmm.. what stupid shit? hes getting really angry when i tease him about his haley friend.. I juss think its cute.. and he dosent think so.. oh well.. juss my thoughts his are diffrent i guess.. totally split my finger open last nite looking for something under my seat on some type of wire.. omg it hurt.. It like bled for 15 minutes ewwwww... 3 MORE MONTHS TILL IM 18 hell ya... School for me starts the 9th.. too bad i wont be graduating at PCHS.. well maybe ill be there 2nd semester... its all good.. new ppl in WC to meet!~ yay...plus... they get out at 155 but i got like 3 OJT's so i get out at 11 something yay!~ lol.. My last day at work was last nite.. my manager cried :( i thought i was going to.. Now im job less and i have a week to find one for my OJT.. so maybe my rents will let me stay at woodys till i find another job.. IDK :( Okay i gotta get dressed ya can you beleive it.. its 442 and im still in my pj's!~ lol Current Mood: bored Current Music: blink 182- down

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July 31st, 2004

11:27 pm - OMG today was good.... I woke up early this morning.. omg sooo tired.. i went with my mom and grandma to brandon so my gma could go shoppin.. so i went to the mall and did a little shoppin myself!~ yay.. I bought some GUCCI perfume.. omg i love it i love it.. then i went to hollister and bought some stuff then a belt buckle at pac sun for my new belt!~ lol.. Then i went to work at 1 and worked till 10 tonight.. Im so tired.. and my feet hurt.. but lauren was there!~ happy balloons.. It juss made the whole night like ten times better...!~ i might do the balloon animals thing.. they make good tips!~ lol... looks fun too.. but now im here and i think im leaving tonight but im not sure... not at all sure.. School starts soon.. im kinnda excited bcuz THIS IS MY LAST FUCKING YEAR.... '05! And i get the meet all the new people YAY!~ Lauren goes to WCHS too.. couldnt get any better than that huh? well im off to bed. Im really really really exhausted. More shoppin tomorrow tho.. cuz i made 83 dollars tonight yay Current Mood: cranky Current Music: my humming computer.. OH shit nvm my phone ringing

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July 29th, 2004

03:45 pm - he told me he loved me and missed me ughmmm Im in trouble right now.. but i dont really wanna talk about it.. so ill write about the happy day i had the other day.. i went over to rays house at like 130 in the morning...i was gonna go earlier after work bcuz he said he had a surprise for me.. but i couldnt.. come to find out... he made me dinner.. **something ive asked him to do since we met** and when i get there.. hes laying on the couch .. pointing to the table.. and theres a tall CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH RED SPRINKLES ON IT!~ yummy!~ he made me a cake!~ i stayed there till like 330 it was really romantic!~ omg i was nice.. so juss lay there in his arms and stuff!~ omg.. then i tucked him in bed and went home.. Then he calls me up the next morning telling me he has something for me to be over by 1130 so i did.. and he had oh wow!~ and underoath tshirt for me. haha ha... I still need my brand new shirt back tho ramon!~~ it was juss all around a good day.. cant give you details.. i have to screen those!~ but now i feel happy now cuz i remember that.. instead of having bad friends here in WC... damn it sux... well i got work.. pce out Current Mood: frustrated

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July 28th, 2004

10:07 pm - omg im soooo gone Today was neat lol I went over to rays this morning yay!~ he said something that made my insides all warm inside!!!!!~ hehe then i went to go a search for my wt ticket soooo.. i snatched a friend and went to the mall.. university? not there... International**my mall!!~ lol**,, not there.. WESTSHORE... its there.. but im to lazy to go get it.. Then now im here.. and i juss finished eating a big ass tray of SUSHI!~ yay.. lol.. leaving the house tonight.. idk what we are doing.. but w/e it is.. i hope it dosent involve COPS.. pce!!~ AND WARPED TOUR Current Mood: cynical Current Music: INCUBUS- TALK SHOWS ON MUTE

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July 27th, 2004

01:26 pm - Getting away with murder Last nite omg i freaked out soooooooooooooooo bad!~ I snuck outta my house about 130 or so and i went up stairs to get andre to help me push the car outta the drive way and down the street.. well i have 2 cops that live RIGHT across the street from me.. they are hillsborough.. but still COP!~ and after we pushed the car out.. i got in and andre went between houses to get back into my window and i hear HEY! im like oh shit.. and i turn the car on.. and i turn around and find out its the guy COP!~ FUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK... so i go around the block and i come back and i park the car in the driveway and get out i see him walking toward my house and hes like i saw a dark figure walking between the houses without a shirt.. im like oh that was my brother, i was juss going to the gas station to get something.. and hes like oh okay. so hes going in from the back.. im like ya!~ his rooms closer that way.. and hes like okay.. and went back into his house as i was "walking to the back"... damn my heart was racin... i was like fuck it.. ill juss go back in and sleep!~ NAHHHHHH.. my ass left!~ yay... Then when me and my friends decided to leave at like 4 in the morning to this place called SADDLEWOOD to talk to someone i dont even know.. but i was like alright.. so i pulled into the road next to this gated place in the middle of NO WHERE.. and i let them out.. and they leave.. so im sitting there in my car listening to music.. blah blah blah.. and i see headlights comeing toward down the street.. im like sweet maybe i can follow them into the gate!~ but NO... IT WAS A FUCKING COP AGAIN!~ im like TRIP OUT!~ and i duck into my seat.. and hes all learking into the gate.. and i call my friends up and im like... omg omg theres a cop that juss went into the gate... and shes like i know!~ and im like whatta i do im sketchin out!~ and they were like.. hey shit they are turning around and their like DIP OUT DIP OUT!!!!~ so thats waht i did.. as fast as i could cuz i coudl see his head lights lol.. so i go down this dark ass street IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE!!!!!!!!!~~~ and im sitting there in the dark.. freaking out sooooooooo bad... and i see a car pass down the street.. and then i see a car coming into the street i turned down.. im like FUCK.. im screwed.. nah.. they turned... i was trippin out soooo bad OMG... i didnt get home till like 530.. then got up at 730 to take andre to work... omg.. i didnt know how ray could be soooo tired and start closing his eyes while hes driving untill this morning.. it was a good nite though.. it was fun.. except the part where ray called me up b4 i left and bitched at me!~ HELLOOOOOOOOO...but its straight.. NO MORE NEGATIVITY.. im not gonna deal with it.. im juss gonna ignore it.. cuz i told him the truth... OMG I LOVE IT HERE!~ HAPPY VIBES!~ Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Breaking Benjamin- SO COLD

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July 26th, 2004

10:26 pm - go ahead and let me fade away Im to the point now.. that im juss like.. fuck it.. i give the fuck up.. on everything that i learned to breath for... Im having fun in my new town.. its soo new now even though ive been here since October... juss like.. IDk... i LOVE plant city and all.. but theres juss to much drama shit there.. that i cant take it.. now im juss like.. rolling my eyes about it.. all the foolish things that i let get to me.. and it seems everytime i enter that town.. something downhill goes on... i mean nothing happend today but im juss saying.. its sooo alive here.. and its sooooooo pretty omg.. and it makes me happy.. im actually starting to be happy!~ thats what i wanted.. and now everything that made me unhappy... imma throw to the dirt.. even some old friends.. this is my life.. i should be happy and enjoy it.. and i am.. im enjoying every minute of it here.. like time flys.. im really happy here now.. my house looks diffrent to me.. everything is in a new perspective.. so everything that i once new that i wasnt so happy with in the past.. im changing it.. and it can either change with me.. or be left behind.. cuz i cant let anything drag me down anymore.. i beleive.. that this is all happend to open my eyes.. to see that i can do w/e i want.. when ever i want.. how ever i want.. whenever i want.. im starting to feel complete.. idk. i juss thought id share that.. so you dont think i totally left you my friends.. i still love you all.. and of course i will be in PC often, but not as much!~ i dont feel like i need to be there much anymore. Its time to move on with new changes.. and push the negative away.. Summertime, summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine all those times. We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind. Oh, the summertime. We could ride, we could ride. Take my hand and watch the world go by. Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly. Oh, the summertime. Go on ahead and let it fade away. No looking back you know the past will stay. It's you and me, we could get out of here. Jump in and go and we could drive for years. We could feel alive... Here we are, here we are, windows down we see a falling star. Stop the car. Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far. Oh, the summertime. So feel the air, feel the air, take the map and point to anywhere. I don't care. Fingers through your hair, the sky I've seen is blue and green. Oh, the summertime. Driving away, leaving it all behind. Driving away, just driving away. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Mae- Summertime

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July 23rd, 2004

01:59 pm - call me if you wanna blaze one up!!~ lol Ray juss came over.. it was nice..hehe.. hmmm... i found out a way to rigg the alarm on my house... last nite.. it was cool.. Imma hang out with some ppls after work tonight!~ I didnt know how pretty Pasco's woods are.. OMG they are sooooo trippy.. omg.. well theres not much to say today.. I kinnda have some things to do b4 i go to work.. wow i gotta go now. Last nite i left my house at about 130.. after i figured out how to rig my alarm on my bedroom window.. sorry ray.. i thought you were long gone alseep so thats why i didnt go over there. anyways i didnt get home till like 5 am.. omg IM SOOOO TIRED.. lol... lifes been good i guess.. hehe well i gotta go Current Mood: flirty Current Music: rays breath in my ear lol

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